November 4, 2013 § Leave a comment
“Never apologize for who you are,” has been ringing in my ear for some time now. I have no idea the person I want to be later but I have a pretty good idea about who I am at this moment. I am a student. I am a server. I am an intern, girlfriend, best friend, sister, etc. But sometimes, I get very self-conscious about the person I am. I am constantly comparing myself to others, second-guessing myself on every other decision I make. I haven’t taken the “normal” path and sometimes I question where I went wrong.
But who says that I went the wrong way? It is going to take me eleven years to get my bachelors. ELEVEN YEARS. I mean I should have my doctorate at that rate. And yet, I look back on the memories I have from taking semesters off, changing schools, losing classes, and during all that – I had a great time, an amazing time actually. I took chances, I made mistakes, I made the very best friends possible from quitting school and my full time job to work in a restaurant and have a pretty free schedule.
I know people judge me on the life that I have lived. I hear things that offend me and make me self-conscious but I always try to remember to have courage to know that it is not them I have to impress, it is myself. Never apologize for who you are.
The path I went down (or maybe you are on) has been a bit more uphill then I had planned and I don’t have to apologize for it. It is making me into the strong, independent, young woman who I am proud to be.